Monday, October 12, 2015

You are beautiful

October is a month I hold deep in my heart. Not only is it Breast Cancer Awareness Month, but also Domestic Violence Awareness. This is a topic we don't talk about too much, and sometimes pretend it doesn't exist.

It does exist.
It happens.

Did you know every 9 seconds a woman in the US is assaulted or beaten?

Domestic violence isn't only physical-it's emotional, sexual, economic and psychological as well.

Before I found happiness I was in love. He was my world and I thought we were going to be together forever. I first met him when I was a freshman in high school. He lived in a different town and went to a different school. He was also three years old than me. We were together for a while, then broke up because he didn't want a girlfriend. I was heartbroken, but eventually I moved on. We reconnected a few years later, and things were great again. He made me smile. He made my heart race and he did things I never thought were possible.

But then I noticed a pattern.

I saw him at night and I always gave in. He was smooth and manipulative. Only I didn't see that. He'd come over to my house, or I'd go over to his. We never cuddled or went on dates.

It was purely sexual.

I allowed this to happen for a few months until I wanted out. He told me over and over again I couldn't find someone better and no one would love me. I felt his words and believed him. I thought he was right. I thought this was what I deserved and what I was stuck with. He made me feel little and made me do things I didn't want.

He gave me a STD. Thank goodness it was curable, but that was the last straw. I knew he was cheating on me and I knew I had to leave or else I was going to be stuck.

The night we broke up I went over to his house, and we fought. He called me fat and ugly, he told me I wasn't good enough and he was the only man who'll love me.

I cried and he laughed in my face.

"You're so fucking weak. Look at you." He came close to my face and I smelled his minty breath. "Where do you think you'll go? I'm never letting you go, bitch."

Those words rung in my ears. He was so close to my face. I thought he was going to hit me. I left with tears in my eyes and I was still his girlfriend.

A week passed, and I didn't hear from him.

A month passed, and I didn't hear from him.

He let me go.
I was free.

I deleted his number and blocked him on social media. I was free of his abusive words and it took me a long time to realize I wasn't ugly and I would find love.

September 2006 I did find love.

October 12, 2015 we're still in love.

Kevin saved me from myself. He made me believe again and showed me what love is supposed to feel like.

Some women aren't lucky. To this day I wonder why he let me go and never tried contacting me. I like to think someone was watching me or someone knocked sense into him. Don't worry my ex is still alive, doing who knows what, and I pray he's a changed man.

Believe you are beautiful and you are worthy of love and happiness. Don't let someone make you feel anything else. Hold yourself high and surround yourself around positive. There will always be stormy days and nights you hear and feel, but remember how strong you are.


Tuesday, March 24, 2015

It's been a while...

EEEEEEEEEPS I'm terrible...I need to start updating my blog and posting some awesome news!

Well right now I'm editing Take Me Away!

Sigh are you excited? I love this story and can't wait for you to read it!

Well I have to back to the editing cave, but I will be back to post more so be sure to come back <3

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Love triangles

Love triangles...Lately I've been thinking about this topic and I blame it on the amazing Molly McAdams.

So I reread Taking Chances and Stealing Harper. Then I finished Sharing You. It gets me thinking-so many people frown on this topic yet it's reality...It happens.

In life, sometimes we're lucky to find that one person who steals our heart and makes life better. It's a great feeling, but what happens when you have two people who you love? Is that possible?

Before I got married, I dated my on again/off again boyfriend for three years. We'll call him "Jack." I thought we were going to be happy and in love forever-oh to be young and naive. Well, we broke up before our senior year in high school and stopped talking. I was broken and it sucked. I lost my V card to him and thought everything would be great from that moment on...I was wrong...I then started dating and it was fun, but then "Jack" and I found each other again thus throwing us into another relationship.

Well long story short, after my trip to Texas to visit him, I was an idiot and I cheated on him because I was drunk. To make matters worse, he's in the Air Force. I felt like a complete idiot. I mean I have this amazing boyfriend who is serving our country and loves me, but one stupid decision and I lose him. I was going to move to Florida and we were going to get married and have our own happily ever after. We got back together, but broke up again.

Life sucks and people make the worse decisions.

During my relationship with "Jack" I met Kevin and we became instant best friends. He came over to the house all the time because his best friend was dating my sister so the summer 2006 involved me with "Jack" and seeing Kevin.

After "Jack" Broke up with me, Kevin and I decided to start dating and "Jack" moved on as well. When he came back to visit a few months after our breakup, we met and talked...Decided to be friends. A few years later he's married and expecting his first child. Sure I was sad and wasn't sure how to handle the news. I had Kevin and he had his family, but I never stopped thinking of him. We went years without talking.

About two years ago we reconnected and caught up. His wife was not happy and Kevin was okay with us talking-yet something was off. I felt like I was in a love triangle, especially when he told me he still loved me and missed me. I was thrown off and didn't know what to do. Needless to say, Kevin was not happy and told me no more. I listened...But when we'd fight I turned to "Jack." I was emotionally cheating on my soon-to-be husband. It was an battle between both guys. Kevin hated "Jack" and "Jack" hated Kevin. "Jack's" wife wasn't too fond of me either and we talked. It wasn't the best time of my life and I didn't know what to do...Until "Jack" asked if I would ever leave my now husband and go back to him. I sat there in my office and cried. You never forget the boy who stole your heart and shared an intimate time with. "Jack" will always be in my heart, but I made the decision to end things and focus on my life with Kevin.

What's the point of this post? Love triangles happen. It sucks and people make decisions without thinking sometimes. Do I wish things were different? Yes, I miss "Jack" but know it's not healthy to be in that situation. I don't regret the past because our past shapes our present and future.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

SILK-New York Times & USA Today Bestselling List

Yesterday, me and ten authors, found out our amazing anthology hit #149 on the USA Today Bestselling List and #22 on the New York Times Bestselling List. This is a dream come true!

SILK includes 11 sexy stories with 11 sexy new book boyfriends. Working with Melissa Andrea, E.K Blair, Melissa Collins, Sarah Dosher, LP Dover, Carey Heywood, Sandi Lynn, Heidi McLaughlin, Jenni Moen & Whitney G was incredible. These women are truly talented and inspirational. In this author world we experience several ups and downs, but with these women it was nothing but laughs, hard work & togetherness. 

SILK includes <3

Meet the men: 

• Ryland Dare (The Edge of Darkness): A privileged boy living a life of lies. 
• Reid Connely (Let Love In): A gorgeous and darkly mysterious college senior who understands pain all too well. 
• Deacon Chastain (A Blue Tale): A guitar player saved from a path of destruction by his rock idol and the music he creates. 
• Connor Simpson (Next to Forever): A fiancĂ© who seems to have it all until he’s faced with one of the toughest decisions of his life. 
• Brett Walker (Trusting You): A one-night stand who wants more finds himself put to the test when his past threatens his future. 
• Adam Hill (Remembering Joy): A brooding and strangely charming film student set on revenge finds love where he least expects it. 
• Ryan Campbell (Falling): An abuse survivor living in a world of his own creation so he doesn’t have to feel. 
• Harrison James (My Unexpected Forever): A single dad with few expectations other than raising his son and making some music along the way until the unexpected happens. 
• Adam Burke (Better): An adventurer who works just enough to fund his next circle around the globe gets an opportunity he can't refuse. The only catch? He won't be traveling alone this time. 
• Luke Matthews (Love In Between): A guitar player grieving the loss of his fiancĂ©e after a tragic car accident no longer believes in love. 
• Jonathan Statham (Mid Life Love): A self-made billionaire and CEO of Statham Industries used to getting whatever he wants—whenever he wants. 
Find out their stories in these eleven, previously released, full-length novels about regret, revenge, forgiveness, and ultimately, love: 
The Edge of Darkness by Melissa Andrea
 Let Love In by Melissa Collins
 A Blue Tale by Sarah Dosher
 Next to Forever by S. Moose
 Trusting You by L.P. Dover
 Remembering Joy by Jenni Moen
 Falling by E.K. Blair
 My Unexpected Forever by Heidi McLaughlin
 Better by Carey Heywood 
Love in Between by Sandi Lynn
 Mid Life Love by Whitney G. 

For $0.99 readers are able to read their favorite story and find new authors. 

Now there's some question about if authors without the bestselling titles should or shouldn't use it. Well here's my opinion-USE IT. Honestly, USA Today and New York Times put the anthology on their list and included all of us. We all worked hard and it's our words that have been included. Sure some people think the authors without a title "used the authors with the titles" but that's far from the truth. SILK and every anthology out there is a TEAM EFFORT-a GROUP EFFORT. So own the titles & be proud because making two bestselling lists is an amazing accomplishment & should be celebrated.

A New York Times & USA Today Bestseller <3

June 9, 2013 Happy One Year Pubversary to Me!

Yes I realize I'm 10 days late hehehe.

Wow I cannot believe its been one year since I hit publish on Reaching Out For You. I didn't really know what I was doing, and since then I've learned so much! Every day I'm learning something new and I would never change anything because we live and learn through our mistakes and experiences.

Since publishing Reaching Out For You, I hit publish 4 more times! FOUR! This journey has been incredible and I love it every single day. Sure I run into some issues, but you know what I feel blessed every day that I get to meet new people and follow my dreams.

Each book that I write connects to my life in one way or another. A piece of me is with you as you read and I can't thank you enough for taking a chance and supporting me.

With my fifth book, Vision of Love, I did something I never thought I would do-I ended with the dreaded cliffhanger!!!! To be honest, I loved it. To read each message and review with "WTF was that?" or "I need book 2 now!" or "I have to wait until August!" Those comments make me smile! When I read each review, good or bad, it helps me with the next book so thank you for taking the time to review!

My life is an emotional roller coaster. There's been times I ignored my family and friends and honestly, my husband, Kevin, and I went through a period of uncertainty. Mistakes and words were said, but now, we're good and in a place we both love.

Thank you for everything! Thank you to my author friends, the bloggers & most importantly the readers. Y'all are amazing <3

Cheers to another year of more book boyfriends, tears, laughs and heartbreak.


Wednesday, April 2, 2014

My newest obsession..#Bemmeett

Where the hell have I been!?

So last night I was doing research on my book and while on YouTube I saw a clip for Switched at Birth..It looked interesting so I clicked on it..Watched it..2 hours later I'm not ADDICTED!

For those who don't know what the show is about here's the synopsis:
Tells the story of two teen girls who discover that they were accidentally switched at birth. Bay Kennish grew up in a wealthy family with two parents and a brother, while Daphne Vasquez, who lost her hearing as a child due to a case of meningitis, grew up with a single mother in a poor neighborhood. Things come to a dramatic head when both families meet and struggle to learn how to live together for the sake of the girls.

Sounds good yeah?

Then I see Emmett..Oh. My. Gosh.

I mean really? SWOON!

So now I'm addicted and can't stop thinking about this damn show! Now I have to wait until June to watch the rest of season 3. Sigh what a major cliffy at the end of season finale episode!

Emmett: "I just wanted to feel that again..What we had. But I don't think I'm ever going to find that feeling with anyone else."

Bay: "You know I love you. I never stopped."

How can you NOT swoon!?

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Eye Candy Bookstore is LIVE

My fab girls with Eye Candy Bookstore have a brand NEW website with tons of great information & of course sexy eye candy.

These girls have worked so hard with promoting authors & giving you the most up to date news & juicy details from today's hottest authors.

Please be sure to visit the site frequently & show your support! My page along with many of my author friends are on their site so be sure to visit often!